The blurriness of the woman... I think it represents my apprehension towards long term commitment. Let's say tomorrow I figure out who this perfect woman for me is. Would I be ready to commit to her? Shape my life around her? Introduce her to my family?
I honestly don't think so. Not yet. It seems as though I'm waiting for something. Like I've closed off a piece of myself to everyone, built up walls, thrown myself behind lock and key. If I open it too soon, things will backfire on me. I'm just not prepared to let anybody in. Not yet.