Alright, I'm done tip toeing around. I've been second guessing myself long enough, and I'm tired of it. It's not like me. I tend to think long-term, take things in stride, etc. Think things through, don't knee-jerk react. Which is exactly what building walls allows you to do.
So I'm going to let my guard down and go with the flow, see where it takes me. I have a feeling I should have done that a long time ago.